So we can learn to pick ourselves up.
Bad news: I didn't lose the 5. In fact, I only lost three. I'm not posting the photo because it felt crappy to take it. I'm at 258. It kind of blows, but it's also reflects a lackluster month. Needless to say, I have to step it up.
For starters, I'm going down to bi-monthly weigh ins. It'll help keep me on check.
I have to go back to weekly goals and trying to accomplish said goals.
I have to watch what I eat like a hawk. This was kind of my downfall for the month: I ate three cupcakes in less than 24 hours. Bleh. That just sounds so horrible. There's a reason I haven't had pasta or sweets. I can't stop myself. I suck at moderation. :( Boo for disappointment.
But I still have 10 months to go. More or less 310ish days to kick ass and take names.
I'm going to go plan my week in meals. Send good vibes my way...I'm not feeling awesome right now.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Evaluating February
OK. We could go a lot of different ways with this one...but let me start with the negatives:
1. As much as I'd like to think that I'm completely happy being completely, utterly single, I'm not. Evidence: I had a liberal amount of cupcakes, ice cream, chocolates (Godiva, because if you're going to be bad about something, you might as well go for the good stuff) this month. Especially around V-Day. I wish I was strong enough to avoid the chocolaty goodness that comes around every Feb. 14 but I'm not. I'm human (I don't usually like admitting that, breakthrough?). Shit happens.
2. I stopped setting/accomplishing weekly goals for myself and that was a serious downfall. It's the only way to keep me accountable for me and I didn't do it. Taking this up again in March.
3. I haven't been stepping on the scale as often...for fear I might not be doing something right. I need to stop being afraid. Being scared of my weight is what got me here. Dammit.
Now for the good stuff:
1. I'm seeing changes in my body, clothingwise. It's minimal, but it is there.
2. I decided to give up going out to eat for lent, which aside from last night's blip (which I'm so paying for today), I'm doing pretty well. I have to think about what I'm going to eat hours ahead and it works to my advantage, even when I am pressed for time.
3. I signed up for a Design Your Own Program session for March 3. I'm guessing we'll be upping the ante by adding more reps and more weight....This should be fun...!
I'm supposed to go to the gym later today and for a quick hike (I told you I was going to be paying for my blip). Have an awesome day!
1. As much as I'd like to think that I'm completely happy being completely, utterly single, I'm not. Evidence: I had a liberal amount of cupcakes, ice cream, chocolates (Godiva, because if you're going to be bad about something, you might as well go for the good stuff) this month. Especially around V-Day. I wish I was strong enough to avoid the chocolaty goodness that comes around every Feb. 14 but I'm not. I'm human (I don't usually like admitting that, breakthrough?). Shit happens.
2. I stopped setting/accomplishing weekly goals for myself and that was a serious downfall. It's the only way to keep me accountable for me and I didn't do it. Taking this up again in March.
3. I haven't been stepping on the scale as often...for fear I might not be doing something right. I need to stop being afraid. Being scared of my weight is what got me here. Dammit.
Now for the good stuff:
1. I'm seeing changes in my body, clothingwise. It's minimal, but it is there.
2. I decided to give up going out to eat for lent, which aside from last night's blip (which I'm so paying for today), I'm doing pretty well. I have to think about what I'm going to eat hours ahead and it works to my advantage, even when I am pressed for time.
3. I signed up for a Design Your Own Program session for March 3. I'm guessing we'll be upping the ante by adding more reps and more weight....This should be fun...!
I'm supposed to go to the gym later today and for a quick hike (I told you I was going to be paying for my blip). Have an awesome day!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Something I might never be able to do right
is accept compliments.
Most anyone that knows me can attest to this. I can't. I usually start protesting, I say no, I say the shirt's a dress and it fits weird, I shake my head... but I'm working on it.
I'm trying to just say thanks. I'm trying to just accept said compliments. I think the hardest ones to accept are the weight loss ones. Whenever someone says I look leaner or smaller, I usually say no. I just don't think people really see it but I guess they do? I see changes in the mirror sure...but not substantial ones...or at least I don't think they're substantial enough to be mentioned. They're not substantial enough for all of my body issues to go away...stupid long road ahead of me...I'm still getting used to the concept of a new body...
Sigh.
When I was done with today's workout, I got my stuff from my locker and went over to the front desk to sign up for another "Design Your Own" Program sessions. One of the managers at the gym said, "Hey, you've been looking good lately. I've been meaning to tell you but you're always rushing out." I responded with a startled look and a stammered thanks and then some awkward silence while I was finding a date for the session. I'm an awkward turtle...maybe one day I'll get it right.
Most anyone that knows me can attest to this. I can't. I usually start protesting, I say no, I say the shirt's a dress and it fits weird, I shake my head... but I'm working on it.
I'm trying to just say thanks. I'm trying to just accept said compliments. I think the hardest ones to accept are the weight loss ones. Whenever someone says I look leaner or smaller, I usually say no. I just don't think people really see it but I guess they do? I see changes in the mirror sure...but not substantial ones...or at least I don't think they're substantial enough to be mentioned. They're not substantial enough for all of my body issues to go away...stupid long road ahead of me...I'm still getting used to the concept of a new body...
Sigh.
When I was done with today's workout, I got my stuff from my locker and went over to the front desk to sign up for another "Design Your Own" Program sessions. One of the managers at the gym said, "Hey, you've been looking good lately. I've been meaning to tell you but you're always rushing out." I responded with a startled look and a stammered thanks and then some awkward silence while I was finding a date for the session. I'm an awkward turtle...maybe one day I'll get it right.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Slacker
I like lists...That's why I make list blogs....Here's one right now!
1. Been stressing out lately. Almost thought about not going to the gym today and I realized that I spend most of my days preaching about exercise being such a good stress-reliever...and I ALMOST DIDN'T GO?! I'm a couple of things, hypocritical isn't one of them. So I made my way to the gym, kicked my own ass during my lower body work out and then during my cardio. Fun, fun! I felt great afterward. It was pretty effin' awesome.
2. I had pasta for the first time in over a month. It was wheat...I don't like wheat but this wasn't so bad. We substituted tofu for ricotta and it turned out quite well really.
3. That's really about it. Haha! I'm going to be crazy busy...I'll try updating. One week until weight in! Two pounds to go! I like exclamations points!
1. Been stressing out lately. Almost thought about not going to the gym today and I realized that I spend most of my days preaching about exercise being such a good stress-reliever...and I ALMOST DIDN'T GO?! I'm a couple of things, hypocritical isn't one of them. So I made my way to the gym, kicked my own ass during my lower body work out and then during my cardio. Fun, fun! I felt great afterward. It was pretty effin' awesome.
2. I had pasta for the first time in over a month. It was wheat...I don't like wheat but this wasn't so bad. We substituted tofu for ricotta and it turned out quite well really.
3. That's really about it. Haha! I'm going to be crazy busy...I'll try updating. One week until weight in! Two pounds to go! I like exclamations points!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Day 1
Quick blog before I go pick up Van.
Here's what I had for breakfast: Oatmeal+Flax seeds+dried cranberries+Green Tea. Noms.
Lunch, outside in the patio with Joaq and Stef. Turkey+provolone+field greens+mustard+ 2 slices of bread+carrot sticks+Sun Chips+ a banana. NOMS I was totally starving during lunch.. OH and most of an apple, that I had technical difficulties with.
And now dinner! and NEW PLATES! :D
And I left out the salmon:
Total noms. Day 1 wasn't so bad. Gonna go plan out lunch for tomorrow :D Hope everyone had an awesome day!
Here's what I had for breakfast: Oatmeal+Flax seeds+dried cranberries+Green Tea. Noms.
Lunch, outside in the patio with Joaq and Stef. Turkey+provolone+field greens+mustard+ 2 slices of bread+carrot sticks+Sun Chips+ a banana. NOMS I was totally starving during lunch.. OH and most of an apple, that I had technical difficulties with.
And now dinner! and NEW PLATES! :D
And I left out the salmon:
Total noms. Day 1 wasn't so bad. Gonna go plan out lunch for tomorrow :D Hope everyone had an awesome day!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I swim for brighter days Despite the absence of sun
Short blog cause I need to go mimis:
Went to the Jack's Mannequin concert at the White Rabbit tonight. It was amazing. So glad I finally got to see the band.
My legs are killing me. Lots of dancing and bopping around. The show made me miss someone I shouldn't really miss...but I couldn't help it. Should have been there, you would have loved it.
I'm giving up going out to eat for lent. This WILL be hard. I'm a social butterfly that loves going to lunch, but I have to save money if I really want to go to school in the summer. It also helps that by cooking my own meals, I'll know exactly what goes in. There will be a more conscious effort on my part to know what goes in and how much. It's going to be hard but I'm going to get through it.
The next 40 days are going to be interesting. I'm putting up photos of the new plates ASAP. But right now, I'm off to bed.
Went to the Jack's Mannequin concert at the White Rabbit tonight. It was amazing. So glad I finally got to see the band.
My legs are killing me. Lots of dancing and bopping around. The show made me miss someone I shouldn't really miss...but I couldn't help it. Should have been there, you would have loved it.
I'm giving up going out to eat for lent. This WILL be hard. I'm a social butterfly that loves going to lunch, but I have to save money if I really want to go to school in the summer. It also helps that by cooking my own meals, I'll know exactly what goes in. There will be a more conscious effort on my part to know what goes in and how much. It's going to be hard but I'm going to get through it.
The next 40 days are going to be interesting. I'm putting up photos of the new plates ASAP. But right now, I'm off to bed.
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