I've been sick

So yeah...no posts. :( Sorry about that.

*sniff*

Well, I think I need to mainline some tea/chicken noodle soup/gatorade/Emergen-C...right. now. I'm not feeling so hot, it's probably just sinuses. I was around a lot of smoke on Tuesday night and then it was really windy the next day so there was probably something in the air.

There's an awards ceremony dinner tonight for work. Going to that and then heading home. I need to go mimis so I can get up, get my oil changed and then go work out twice...Tomorrow's going to be super fun! Yeah!

Food for today:
Fiber 1/Soy milk
Naked smoothie/banana/cup of frozen berries
Hummus/Cherub tomatoes/crackers
turkey/mustard/spinach/cheese sammich
raw almonds/dried apricots

I'm guessing dinner's going to be chicken fajitas, rice, beans and other delicious things. :D

Justin the Trainer is trying to kill me

I'm mostly kidding...kinda.
So I met with him today for the trainer Design Your Own Program session and its seems as though he wants to kill me.
Here's what my work outs are going to look like for the next month:
Day 1: Lower Body with more reps and sets than in February, plus 40-50 minutes of cardio.
Day 2 & 4: 40-50 minutes of cardio.
Day 3: Upper Body with more reps and sets than in February, plus 40-50 minutes of cardio.

I technically started on Day 2 today with 40 minutes on the elliptical never letting my heart rate get under 160. It was hard. My right calf is still twitching an hour more than an hour after I was done. Tiredsies. March is going to be a loooooong month.

Anyway, while I was working out I chose to watch Oprah. The main topic for the day was Beauty so it seemed fitting that Jessica Simpson should be the celebrity guest. The peg for the interview was Simpson's battle with weight criticism and the media and her new show...I thought it was all a little contrived. But that's because that Jessica gains 10 pounds and she's labeled a cow when really, this Jessica would probably do some crazy shit just to get anywhere near her weight.

But Simpson realizes that it really doesn't matter what People or US Weekly says about her, what matters is how she feels about herself. Right now, at 255, I'm feeling pretty awesome. I'm seeing results and I'm trying to work through any obstacles (read: cupcakes) that come my way, but, again, I'm sure I've said this before, this is going to be a long journey. Annoyingly long.

The episode also featured Beauty Around the World with reporting by Lisa Ling. Ling visited this insane amounts of plastic surgery. It costs about $300 dollars to get a eyebrow fix in China and these beautiful women were going in there in scores to get more Western-looking eyes. It really bummed me out. Especially when I think about how gorgeous Asian women are, prominent eyelids be damned! Then Ling went to the other facility where people go to grow: Again more insane surgery, this time involving bolts and screws and saws. All so that they could be anywhere from 3-12 inches taller. Now, I'm not the tallest, but I can deal. Either that or I'm a weinie and I a) Don't have $40 K and b) I'm not down with spending up to a year in rehab. Way intense.

I'll leave you with one of my favorite pieces written in National Geographic. I read it right before I went into high school, so it stuck with me. I'm going to re-read the Enigma of Beauty and think about it the next time I'm sweating buckets at Planet Fitness.

I'm off to find some dinner in my fridge, I have to make my way to H-E-B at some point...running out of key things!

Blogging from work...

Rebel.

Luckily, no one knows who I am, what I do or where I sit usually, so I'm risking it.

Anyway, I stepped on the scale this morning and I hit my goal weight for February: 255 lbs. As Mansee put it, if February was 31 days I woudl have been good. But it doesn't and it's not like I can just pretend I didn't eat all those cupcakes...Which by the way, I had a cupcake last night...I traded it for flour tortillas (mostly because I find it hard to find flour tortillas I like).

I'm meeting with Justin the Trainer today to design March's program. I'm pretty pumped about it. When I started working out using his design, I was at 264 so yay for differences!

Let's see what have I had to eat today: Breakfast was 2 scrambled eggs on a piece of bread and a slice of cheese and a banana. Yogurt was my mid-morning snack. Now I'm eating some baked chicken and broccoli and I have about a cup and a half of strawberries for dessert. Noms.

I'll post an update of today's Trainer session later.

Morning Blog

Well, it took long enough but I finally dragged myself out of bed. It was an ordeal, for sure. Anyway, I'm off to the gym! I don't have to get into work until noonish or 1 p.m. because I'm working the election results tonight (nothing awesome, just data entry, but 5 more hours on the time sheet!)

Hope everyone has an awesome day!

Brand Spanking New

Or more like Brand Spanking Renewed attitude. March is here and I'm ready for it.

Last night before bed, I made overnight oats with 1/3 cup rolled oats, 1/3 cup soy milk and 1/3 cup blueberry yogurt. Then this morning I threw in some walnuts, flax seed and a banana. Nom nom nom. That pretty much held me over until 10 a.m. when I started chomping on some Farmers Market carrots. Tastytown.

Later I had lunch with Stef and Joaq. I had baked some chicken breasts and I heated some wild rice and a sweet potato. And of course, a Dark Chocolate Jell-O mousse. NOMS.

Anyway, during lunch we had a brief Meeting of the Minds and I was reminded of some stuff I'd said about two weeks ago: I have to find time for myself. Not just time when I can sit around and do nothing. But I'm-worth-it time. Because that's how things get done.

So I made my way to the gym which was cuh-razy packed: The first Monday of the month is Pizza Night so you have all these people working out and all these people eating pizza. It's completely contradictory, but I think they had some apples and oranges last time.

I had to wait around for machines and ask people how many sets they had left, but I finally got my upper body work out in. It was awesome and then it was time for Cardio. Yes, I capitalized Cardio, because it was 40 minutes of intervals that kicked my ass. It was hard (I swear if someone even thinks "That's what she said" ...) and I got all sweaty and gross. But eventually the 40 minutes were up and Cardio was done.

Now, I'm home. I'm going to rap up because I realized I'm monologuing. My friend Kate suggested I measure myself so I can observe changes numerically (besides just hopping on the scale). I had been putting this off, mostly because they're not the best numbers but I might as well face them. Here are my measurements as of March 1:

Bust: 46 inches
Waist: 45 inches
Stomach: 53 inches
Hips: 53 inches
Left Upper Arm: 15 inches
Left Thigh: 31.5 inches
Left Calf: 16.5 inches
Right Upper Arm: 15 inches
Right Thigh: 32 inches
Right calf: 16.5 nches

There. Let's see what a new outlook, renewed food changes (I refuse to use the D word), and a new work out can do. Like I said this morning: Bring it on, March.

Why do we fall?

So we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Bad news: I didn't lose the 5. In fact, I only lost three. I'm not posting the photo because it felt crappy to take it. I'm at 258. It kind of blows, but it's also reflects a lackluster month. Needless to say, I have to step it up.

For starters, I'm going down to bi-monthly weigh ins. It'll help keep me on check.

I have to go back to weekly goals and trying to accomplish said goals.

I have to watch what I eat like a hawk. This was kind of my downfall for the month: I ate three cupcakes in less than 24 hours. Bleh. That just sounds so horrible. There's a reason I haven't had pasta or sweets. I can't stop myself. I suck at moderation. :( Boo for disappointment.

But I still have 10 months to go. More or less 310ish days to kick ass and take names.

I'm going to go plan my week in meals. Send good vibes my way...I'm not feeling awesome right now.